A place to record all of the above.
A place to record all of the above.
This journey called life is a very fascinating one. The perspective I have had of life for a very long time (over half of my life), is that it is really about knowing yourself more. Deeper. Loving yourself completely. Having the most intimate connection you can with yourself. Just when you think, "Oh yeah! I feel really connected with myself!" You find that you open up to deeper knowledge of and connection with--yourself.
That's where I am at right now. With all of the shifting that has occurred and is occurring in my life, I am connecting with myself in ways I have never thought possible. I have also always said, that no matter who you are, you can love yourself deeper. Boy isn't that the truth! And yep! I use the Love word. I tend to use the word quite a bit. We can use lots of other words for it, but it is the best way to describe what It (the Divine) is. Today however, I am using the word connection.
So connection. Or shall I say a re-connection is what it feels like I am doing right now. It is a re-connection on a deeper level than I have ever imagined. I am going to completely use myself as an example here, however, I think everyone will go through this in their way if they haven't gone through this already. I have been definitely connected with myself. As always, there are more ways I can wake up in my consciousness and awareness of the intimate relationship with me. Just when I wake up to a realization....I wake up out of it. It's never ending, that is why I say the relationship is deeper. I feel that it is deeper into consciousness. Oh....I will probably wake up out of that too. HA! HA! HA!
With this ever-evolving alliance, I have come to realize that it is a very complex relationship. Yet, it is so simple and I (and safe to say we as humans) have made it complex. I can look back and say, oh it was all of the beliefs and conditionings I was raised with or previous lives....blah.....blah...blah. I can do that, and it will keep in me in the victim mindset to the end of days. I am moving forward from here and recognizing it is simple. All there is to do is to listen to my intuition and act. Listen and act. Listen and act. As interactions with others and experiences bring up emotions, I feel them, and still listen and act. The relationship with me, my intuition (Higher Self), my body, my emotions, etc. Is the only connection that is of the utmost importance right now. All of the other external relationships are continuing to grow beautifully, as long as I make the relationship with me the priority. One way that I had mentioned last week for me is to recognize when my relationship with myself was not in balance, was feeling anxious.
I have known for a while now that I could use anxiety as a tool when something wasn't my truth. I have had anxiety my whole life, but it took me until I was an adult (and not that long ago) to get that it is designed to help me. Here's the newest awareness on the deeper level about anxiety. It is my intuition telling me that I am not listening to her. I am trying to get external answers or "figure it out" on my own. When I am feeling the anxiety about something or someone, I have started to check in with Michelle. I now have a conversation with her. Not a conversation with just my brain. I have done plenty of that in the past. I am talking about a conversation with Michelle. There is definitely a difference. My brain or ego if you will, will spout more jibberish back. It's Michelle that triggers the ego to start the jibberish if I am not listening to her. But what has happened is that I have cut her off and listened soley to the jibberish instead of recognizing she is the one that is trying to get my attention.
Yep. The trash talk believe it or not, is her trying to get my attention. Pretty crafty if you ask me. Now that I have recognized this, it has helped a ton! The jibberish doesn't last as long as it used to because soon after it starts, I engage in a converstation with Michelle. It's a really exciting notion that the jibberish will be completely gone (or at least to a minimum) if I listen and act. My body is really thanking me too, now that I am using the anxiety as a tool. I am going to try it with ALL emotions. Not just the uncomfortable ones. They are all here for us to be in relationship with to benefit from each other. Yep. Those at times painful and wonderful emotions use us too! HA! Sounds good as I am typing this.
I get it. I am a work in progress. A Divine masterpiece that I am continuing to work on for the Divine. Because isn't that what the Divine is doing through each individual expression of itself? Lovingly paint and build on the magnificent masterpiece that it already is? That really resonates with me. The Divine is expanding through us. This is the big picture of why we are here. To expand and grow the Divine. When we do it on the individual level the Divine is automatically doing it at the Divine level. HA! LOVE IT!
Here I go to be the masterpiece that I am.
Until next time...
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